Habits. Routine. Having a mode of operation.
Those things come in so handy when you are swinging around on the mood swing!
Since a couple of months I have been able to implement some basic habits. They are pretty simple really. Like making my bed everyday. Having breakfast every morning. Hanging up my coat, my purse, my scarf, each in its own place when I come in. Putting my shoes away. Having my laundry organised. Going to bed and getting up about the same time every day.
Talking about organisation – I finally ‘organised’ the shelves and desks in my back room, tidied up my bedroom, created order in my kitchen. And you know what? It makes such a difference to my daily life!
The kitchen happened first, because a new kitchen cabinet was placed where one obviously had been before. Now all my stuff disappeared from my window sill and counter top and it suddenly looked so neat and tidy! I gave my window sill a new look and every time I passed my kitchen I stood still and simply enjoyed the view…
The rest is history, as they say. Soon the other parts of my house followed. I started to feel at home for realzzzzz! An awesome experience 🙂
After arranging everything I somehow managed to even put some order in my daily habits. I am determined to keep my kitchen uncluttered. To stay on top of my laundry and not ‘forget’ to put it away (i.e. dump it in my bedroom and ‘fishing’ in the huge heap for clean stuff).
I honestly don’t know why I was able to get on top of things this time. I have tried before, real hard, to no avail. But what matters most is, it is happening!
Behind me is a period of doing really well. It took me by surprise. I enjoyed it thoroughly. Nearly got used to what I started to think of as my new ‘normal’. That is when SAD hit me.
SAD, or Seasonal Affective Disorder, is a type of depression that comes with Fall. As the leaves are falling, so am I 😦
I actually thought I was going to miss out on it this year. I am taking my vitamin D (since I am officially low on D), was energetic, my social life was on the up. It couldn’t have been better.
Then one day I woke up in a funk. For no reason whatsoever. Really. No rhyme or reason. The next day it was a little worse. The next day, still worse. Then it started to settle.
Sluggishness and tiredness followed. I am fighting to go to bed at a reasonable time. I am struggling to get up in time for my activities. I need more time for e.v.e.r.y.t.h.i.n.g. which is totally annoying and irritating. My proper eating habits that have served me well (I lost weight, a story for another post if I don’t gain it back) are flying out of the window. I want to eat junk food and snacks. I don’t feel sociable. I sit behind the laptop doing mindless games, wasting time I should spend on my study and some other projects. This irritates me to no end!
BUT. I am hanging on to my habits. I am still making my bed, doing my dishes, doing my laundry, keeping order in my house. I try to cook every day and eat regularly. Will have breakfast. I am going to work, I do my activities. I will celebrate St. Nicholas with good friends on Sunday and they will be my guests. So I am sociable and I am determined to enjoy it as much as possible.
I don’t know when this episode will pass. The only thing I know for sure is that it WILL pass. That’s the nature of my illness. Till then, I have to hang on with all my might. Even if I am hanging by nails, I will hang on!
What do you do to get yourself through such times?
Help me by answering in the comments.