All around, everything and nothing, all about fathers and what to get them. A gazillion blog posts, everywhere you turn, all those blasted fathers!! Father’s day 2011 ~ I have been waiting impatiently for you to pass and quit pestering me.
Because I hail from a family of origin where nothing was as it seemed. From the outside it looked nice. However, “don’t show others your dirty laundry!” was a frequent reminder we kids heard to keep it that way. In truth, our family was highly dysfunctional & very damaging. Although as a child I, of course, considered our life normal, just like we all do as a kid.
I have always wondered how others like me deal with those Father’s and Mother’s days. How can you forcibly honor your parents??
Unfortunately, it reminds me every time of not having a parent nor a kind of relationship with them that makes such a day enjoyable. It damn hurts!
Yesterday I was preparing a cracker.
I had sliced a beautiful, tasty tomato, sprinkled it with salt and pepper… and added fresh, thin sliced, raw onion on top.
While cutting the onion I was reminded of my dad and the camping holidays we as a family took in the South of France. Fresh French bread every day! Fresh fruits and vegetables we didn’t know existed! And those we did know, tasted a million times better.
My dad taught me to eat tomato with raw onion and occasionally I will pine for it. Since I now can get real good tasting tomatoes at the Persian shop below and fresh, strong onions at the greengrocer, it is a pleasure to eat my cracker (in lieu of French bread – a necessary dietary compromise).
It’s hard to deal with Father’s and Mother’s day when sometimes the only thing you can literally be thankful for is the fact they gave you life. And then there were times I wasn’t even grateful to be alive at that!
Even though Father’s day has passed, I realised that there was something I could do.
I took the prepared cracker and ate it in honor of my dad, who sadly passed away this past Summer.