My mind is racing really fast
My mouth is trying to keep up
I hear myself going on and on
Not able to get the train to stop
But it’s always coming to a crashing halt
When in the abyss it does fall
Bruised and broken I am down
Gathering my shattered self
Where is my strength to start
The up-hill battle once again?
To crawl out from the slimy pit
I find myself the umpteenth time
Sometimes it takes a moment
Sometimes it takes a year
Other times it lasts forever
Other times it lasts not long
Some days I am happy
Some days I am blue
Other days find me yapping
Other days find me still
I am swinging right along
The ups and downs of all my moods
Thrilled one day and crushed the next
Or all together mixed
This is the norm by which I live
The cocktail of my life
Learning the tools of my trade
To create order in my brain
Where disorder normally rules
Is what I do each day
It gives a value to my life
That no one can explain!
Fenny a.k.a. The Crazy Rambler
04/06/2011
Writing prompt: What battle are you fighting? Write a poem overcoming.
You really get to the crux of the mood swings and the effects they have. I wrote a poem ages ago called Bipolar Distress about my experience of it – http://wordsinsync.blogspot.com/2011/03/monday-madness-week-2-poem-and-article.html Here if you should feel like looking it over. Shah .X
Thanks for your link, Shah. I think your poem flows beautifully and describes us really well!
This is my first poem in English. As it was Mama Kat’s prompt, I thought to give it a try. Tickled that you like it
I used to write Dutch poems a long time ago, but they are gone together with my diaries. Worst.Thing.Ever.
This was really incredible… a poetically raw glimpse. Amazing…
*blush*, thanks so much for the compliment Misty!
I am a fellow-lover of frozen yoghurt (the best I ever had was in Israel!!); pens, pencils and all things stationary; and Donald Miller books
I’ll be back to visit your blog some more.
Later!
Here from Mama Kat’s. Thank you for sharing your poem.
Thanks and welcome to my blog Jacki!
You describe the ups and downs, the swings so well. I don’t have it, but I have family members that do.
Thanks Vandyl! Especially since you know it as an outsider, I am glad it means something to you too!
I am a fellow bookworm – in childhood books were my safe place and I could equally lose myself completely in a book. My family even teased me, offering sweets and such, but I was in another world, not aware of anything
Visiting from Mama Kat’s!
Good job on your poem. I am not familiar w/ Bipolar, but after reading your post, I feel I understand a little better.
Thank you, Jennifer, that is a great compliment!
Mission accomplished
Very well written.
Hello Jennifer and thanks so much for the compliment!
Have been perusing your blog and like it mucho. Hope to be back
Argh ~hittin enter too early is not commendable.
I really liked your story about breaking a rule you didn’t break, lol!
i am so glad i stopped by on the linkup. you bravely and poetically put words to your struggle. I deal with depression and anxiety, and have never directly written it like you have, though I have done some fairly revealy poetry about bad days. Im glad to know youre out here, and really enjoyed this glimpse into your life
Thanks Frelle! I bet you can relate though, as depression is very much part of my journey and anxiety takes up a lot of space at times too
But you know what? By struggling through it, it really does give value to my life and from what I saw on your blog, it’s the same for you. I recognized quite a number of your list on todays post
Il y a 3 jours que mon medecin ma apris que j’étais bipolaire.
Je n’etais pas surpris car on dirais je my attendais j’ai 23 ans, est je me sans diferent depuis je suis tout jeune, mes pensé ne cesse jamais, j’analyse tout, parfois la moindre chose me rend triste,agressif, heureux,malheureux,…..Je crois par compte que la vie continue……il faut se batte malgré tout,
Hi M.
Thanks for visiting this blog, I hope it gave you some useful information and you recognized some things. I’d love it if you’d chime in and gave your perspective!
I hope that you are happy to know what is going on in your brain, so you understand yourself more fully. I hope that the diagnosis is a relieve to you, as you have always known ‘something was up’. Now you know what, and you can move on.
If you have any questions – please feel free to ask, either in th comments, the contact from on top or email!
Take care, it will get better from here!